Honeymoon Envy

I don't consider myself a jealous person. For the most part I really enjoy my life and the direction it is taking. I don't want for much. Sure, having some more money might be nice but I am in school and my husband and I make due with what we have and that is that. There is one thing I am insanely and irrationally jealous of though: people who get nice honeymoon's.

It seems like everyone I know who has gotten married recently got to go somewhere warm and fun. Even my friend who has a baby managed to save up the money and vacation time to take a week long honeymoon to St. Lucia. My husband and I: went camping for three nights in Holly, MI. This included a trip to the Flint, MI mall where our car keys were stollen while we enjoyed the arcade. My dad had to come and take me to our apartment in Detroit to get the extra set of keys while my new husband sat by our car in the parking lot for 2+ hours. On top of this, it rained most of the weekend and our cabin had no heat and a door that did not lock. The whole experience was unromantic to say the least. And yet, we still managed to have fun (and to even laugh about the whole thing later).

I feel blessed to be with someone who makes me laugh everyday and who laughs at my jokes and antics as unfunny as they may be at times. We had a beautiful wedding and have a family who loves us and supports our union. We are able to afford to live on our own while I go to graduate school and he works two part time jobs. Our life is good and we are good for each other. I am grateful. And yet.....

I find myself staring at my friend's honeymoon pictures with jealousy. How I wish we could have had that fairy tale experience. I keep telling myself that maybe we can do it for an anniversary trip but seeing as we live paycheck to paycheck right now and want to have kids once I am out of school I don't know if it will ever happen. I am sure I will get over it eventually. And to be honest, I am fond of our strange mini-moon story in a way only my husband (and maybe father who rescued us) can understand. I am lucky enough to have found that person who I am still happy to wake up next to everyday and I hope that feeling lasts for many, many years to come. I know deep down a fancy honeymoon would not have changed anything, but who doesn't like warm weather and room service?